Moody Days and Perfect Makeup -- Featuring October's 4Seasons, Chop Zuey, Boudoir and Tresor Couture

It's been a long time since something or someone made me cry 'online'. I forgot how it felt. We share our hearts with various people for many different reasons. We extend trust slowly, and then we hope that we're going to survive that moment, and the next. Of course we do survive, and maybe as models, with pixelated mascara and eyeliner, our makeup never runs, but I think the tears fall down somewhere in our hearts. I question myself, my ability to relate to others, and my connections here in this virtual world after days like today. And I'm so glad that not too many days like today exist in my world.

I often tell people that life is too short to get upset or stay upset. I know this more because of the health scares I've had and because I live with kidney disease. I don't expect special treatment. I would really dislike that. I'm already the china doll that everyone's afraid to touch in my world off line. To live that online too, well I just couldn't. So I'm here, in a beautiful gown, hair by one of my favorite designers, alone on the floor of a grand ballroom and realizing that sometimes, it's very sad to be alone, and other times, it's just what I need. I don't know about this moment right now. I don't often write 'moody' notes. It's just hitting me harder than it should, maybe because I haven't let the door open for long in a long time and haven't had so many 'moody' moments.

I'm grateful to the designers who support me, friends I've made in this business, places I've gotten to go and events in which I've participated. I love the lady behind the name Tresor Couture. She does a lot for the world around her and I treasure people like that. Yes, Tresor - treasure. It fits. I wouldn't be the same person if I didn't have Ms. Oooh October in my life and the chance to wear her skins exclusively is a privilege. I can't imagine Second Life without Chop Zuey and Boudoir and all of the high class designers who've been here, creating, designing, and letting me taste a little nibble from their world. It helps me disappear for a little while, into another world, and it doesn't hurt, not for a little while, anyway.

Featuring October's 4Seasons Lily Skin Tone Angelina

Featuring October's 4Seasons Diva Look At Me Shadow

Featuring October's 4Seasons Seduction Red Vines Lips

Featuring Tresor Couture Tah Blue

Featuring Boudoir Chess Queen Crown

Featuring Chop Zuey Freedom Angel Set

1. .:JUMO:. Brighton Heels Baroque

2. SLink: Female Feet High

3. Truth: Short With Bangs

4. Maxi Gossamer Swallow Wings Lashes

5. KMADD/Moda Mesh Eyes

6. Manifeste Poses

Hard On the Outside; Soft On the Inside -- Featuring from The Month of Games Boudoir and 69 Park Avenue

I'm back just in time to wrap up the Month of Games event the last few days it will be playing. Siren Productions always puts together an awesome array of events and this one was even better than others, I think, because the theme really pushed designers to think outside maybe their normal range of ideas, and encourage everyone to have fun, and think 'game.'

Boudoir put together several really playful composite outfits and I chose to share this one, The Chess Queen. It's a little bit naughty but isn't that what you expect from a place that features fancy lingerie and bits and pieces meant to tempt and tease your special someone?

I also found a pair of mens boots I really liked in one of the outfits that was marked as a male outfit. I do like to borrow from men's clothing designers all the time, especially accessories. The essence of hard and soft appeals to me, and expresses a good estimate of me, the person behind the text and pixels. I'm hard on the surface, sometimes even perceived as cold by those who know me off line, but inside, I just want to be snuggled, to be loved, and to love and snuggle others. The boots from 69 Park Avenue from their King Justice outfit added just the toughness I sought.

Featuring from The Month of Games Boudoir Chess Queen

Featuring from The Month of Games 69 Park Avenue King Justice (boots)

Featuring from [no. 7] Circus Boop Makeup

1. Poetic Color: Quicksilver

2. EMO-tions: Susannah

3. Gaeline: Magnificia

4. Kyxe Skins & Shapes: Lily Skin Tone - Hannah

5. Manifeste Poses